just makes me smile

Gazing at stars for hours,feeling the breeze in my hair,sound of moving trains,those red roses on my table,getting all drenched in rain, witnessing a sunrise,that old letter from a friend, few pictures on my mail, dancing till the last track,a long day at work,a heart that rests on my neck,a call from di,ma's delicious food, lectures from dad...is what makes me smile when i am sad.

just 22

It was my birthday a few daysback and i turned 22.
here are 22 lessons i learnt so far....
1.Trust the tried ones.
2.Forgive quickly
3.Dreams dont let you sleep
4.Smile and mean it.
5.Have anything nice in mind...say then n there..
6.Give people benefit of doubt.
7.Love truly
8.Never say yes too early and No not soon enough
9.Clean up your mess
10.Action speak louder than words
11.Find time for things you love
12.Never say no to something that makes you smile
13.Its never too late
14.Never turn ur back on a friend
15.Happiness lies,where your people are
16.Somethings are better left unsaid
17.Dance in the rain
18.Sunrise is the best part of the day
19.Expect gud things to happen.
20.Think fast ,Think big,Think ahead
21.Deserve than Desire
22.Pain is for a moment ,Pride is forever

pushing my luck is all exercise i need these days...it has been 7 months already,dont know why this is happening? i have been holding on hope for such a long time..m tired, a little discouraged.
and today i finally cried , yet another month..dont know if i have enough strength left. feel like saying ,why me????
There are some things no one can understand...like your dreams, your struggles and your feelings. No matter how much anyone pretends,they will never know.If only someone could share your vision.
i dont like to write when am depressed,but today i am ..so i just let this frustration out of me. m publishing this to , so i remember i survived this.
wish things could have been a little easier, just a little...a bit may be.
Night is darkest right know.I m in a mess for sure. M so glad i have an aim..this exam is all i want in my life right now..
No matter what am going to ace it . Dont care about this redtapism any more. Come whatever may..if it was a little fair ,would have been gud.But am not going to find an excuse..To hell with circumstances ,i create oppurtunities.May be someday ill remember it as something which made me push my limits , if i survived this ill look back with pride. Pain is for a moment ,Pride is forever.