just makes me smile

Gazing at stars for hours,feeling the breeze in my hair,sound of moving trains,those red roses on my table,getting all drenched in rain, witnessing a sunrise,that old letter from a friend, few pictures on my mail, dancing till the last track,a long day at work,a heart that rests on my neck,a call from di,ma's delicious food, lectures from dad...is what makes me smile when i am sad.

just 22

It was my birthday a few daysback and i turned 22.
here are 22 lessons i learnt so far....
1.Trust the tried ones.
2.Forgive quickly
3.Dreams dont let you sleep
4.Smile and mean it.
5.Have anything nice in mind...say then n there..
6.Give people benefit of doubt.
7.Love truly
8.Never say yes too early and No not soon enough
9.Clean up your mess
10.Action speak louder than words
11.Find time for things you love
12.Never say no to something that makes you smile
13.Its never too late
14.Never turn ur back on a friend
15.Happiness lies,where your people are
16.Somethings are better left unsaid
17.Dance in the rain
18.Sunrise is the best part of the day
19.Expect gud things to happen.
20.Think fast ,Think big,Think ahead
21.Deserve than Desire
22.Pain is for a moment ,Pride is forever

pushing my luck is all exercise i need these days...it has been 7 months already,dont know why this is happening? i have been holding on hope for such a long time..m tired, a little discouraged.
and today i finally cried , yet another month..dont know if i have enough strength left. feel like saying ,why me????
There are some things no one can understand...like your dreams, your struggles and your feelings. No matter how much anyone pretends,they will never know.If only someone could share your vision.
i dont like to write when am depressed,but today i am ..so i just let this frustration out of me. m publishing this to , so i remember i survived this.
wish things could have been a little easier, just a little...a bit may be.
Night is darkest right know.I m in a mess for sure. M so glad i have an aim..this exam is all i want in my life right now..
No matter what am going to ace it . Dont care about this redtapism any more. Come whatever may..if it was a little fair ,would have been gud.But am not going to find an excuse..To hell with circumstances ,i create oppurtunities.May be someday ill remember it as something which made me push my limits , if i survived this ill look back with pride. Pain is for a moment ,Pride is forever.

Cardinal Rules of life
1.Make peace with your past so it wont screw up the present
2.What other people think of you is none of your business
3.Time heals almost everything,give time.
4.No one is incharge of your happiness, except you
5.Dont compare your life to others and dont judge them... you have no idea what there journey is all about
6.Stop thinking too much,its alright not to know all the answers..
they will come to you when you least expect it
7. Smile. you dont own all the problems in the world...

Dear life,
Today just felt like talking to you. It’s been too good lately, and I know tomorrow will be a new day. Lots of things are going to change. Its fine with me…I know I must be sounding a little different to you. Thanks to you I don’t fear change anymore, I look forward to it.
You have been a dear friend always. Thanks for making me realise so many things. I mean u helped me value things in life. I could never appreciate pleasure if u didn’t let me experience pain. To rejoice success I needed to know the meaning of failure. To smile with heart, my eyes had to be moist. To live present I had to let go of past .Somehow I have been lucky, u taught me everything with love, at the right time. For every mistake I made, u made me grow as a person. The struggles and problems made me discover the parts of me I never knew. Every choice I make leads to me a new door. And I am amazed by this wonder. At times I feel like looking back, but not turning back. Now I know that I can never get today back. This moment will never be there again and I don’t waste my time trying to hold it. Living it with my heart and leaving it. There is a new dream in my eyes. Let’s see how my journey unfolds. The way is open.
No regrets, No apologies and No complaints, thanks for every single thing. Hope someday you will gift me patience, silence and modesty too.
I seriously love you honey. Wish this love of ours grows with each day.

Love u more than ever,
Shubhi

It’s just too easy to give up. Situations are never what you want them to be. If they were life would be already planned. No freshness, nothing challenging. Its too natural to like it the smooth way, none wants to come out of their comfort zone. When given an option most of us prefer the easier way, to go with the flow is our choice.
Adversity or May I call them tricky situation is in reality blessings in disguise or we would have never got a chance to discover our unknown strengths. It is about accepting the situations and adapting quickly. Survival of fittest is the rule .so rather than running away or being the victim of destiny. Why not believe in yourself and give it your best shot. The saddest thing in life is not to discover your full potential. There are no second chances in life, because if you really deserved one you will never need it…and it’s never too late to realize this.

there are no endings , no beginnings.life goes on.